A TEST

...and there I was sitting by myself in deep thoughts wondering... does God even hear me at all? is He paying any attention to my cry, does He even love me? sometimes I tell myself ''it's just a phase, it'll pass in no time'' but it doesn't seem like it's going to end. It just happened that soon after I lost interest in Praying, I mean it's just like putting efforts into a relationship and the other person isn't responding or even trying to make things work.....soon such a person tends to get tired right? I mean making a 'relationship' work requires efforts put in by both parties right? Yes, I felt tired of the 'relationship' and it became like a marriage of endurance, I mean the feeling of ''I want a divorce but what would people think of me'', so you stay put, not because you want to but because you have to, that's how I felt....

This feeling was on for so long until it dawn on me that as a christian I have to go through series of tests, and like a student in a test hall the lecturer would be there supervising but wouldn't say anything during the test even if the lecturer looks into your paper and sees you're having a tough time with a question he/she wouldn't say a word!! how mean of them we would think, but there was time for everyone to prepare for the test!. Anyway, I came to realise that I was going through something similar, A TEST and my 'Lecturer' although present but it didn't seem like it. I needed to pass that phase to progress but He stays quite for the test period because like every lecturer before the test they provide all the necessary resources you need to ace that test. And just like when you didn't prepare well for an exam or you see questions you don't expect, you feel like ''OMG they should say time up already'' it feels long when you don't  know what to write in your answer scripts.

So I went back to my 'drawing board' although it felt like it was too late to start over but I did. Soon after, things just automatically fell into place. Everything became better, You know that feeling you get when you open your exam question paper and those are the exact questions you just recently revised, well.. that's how i feel everyday... i feel prepared and I have at the back of my mind God wouldn't give me more than I can handle. I've stopped 'enduring the relationship' It feels like ''new love''. Most times the answers we need have been clearly stated in the bible but how would we know if we don't take time to study it to understand and get these answers?.

Pray without ceasing (1 Thessalonians5:17).


We shouldn't allow circumstances determine how we relate with God.
In Happy times praise God
In Difficult times seek God
In Quiet times worship God
In Painful times Trust God
and Every time Thank God